Consumers Anonymous (December 2013) by L

I wasn’t’ offered health.  A whole way of being in the world was not my inheritance.  So here I am an addict, trying to be whole with things.   

thing

noun

1.a material object without life or consciousness; an inanimate object.

Things.  This is all we have to satisfy us.  So we say, so we create, so we have.  Only things.  Nothing is sacred, nothing mysterious, nothing alive and conscious and loving to join us and make us whole.  Only things or the hope of supernatural redemption.  (i.e. this world is a joke, a game, the real deal is somewhere else--hang around it’ll be sweet)

What the hell. No, I don’t buy it.  I’ve tasted wild water. I knew this as a child. The earth is alive.  We are all the family of life and we sustain each other.  It’s all here. 

But how do I drop my addiction?  How will I be cared for?  It’s not like we have people showing us the way.  I’ve only started to meet a few people I think to be on that path.  And damn is it hard.  How do you let go?  How do you trust it at this point? Certainly it’s all going to fall apart?  How does an entire global culture drop an addiction?

How do I drop my addiction?  When everyone around me is killing the earth how can I put my trust in it? How can I leave my comfort?

But what else is there?  JUST THIS MOMENT OF BLISS. Indulging again.

HELP ME, FRIENDS.